PTA Depression

The town mayor issued a letter, congratulating June Snapple on her big win. He said he's happy to have someone who is going to help him in his mission to combat poverty in our area. It was such a slap in the face. Like they took my campaign promises and attributed them to June.

I was the one who was going to fight poverty! I promised to do what I could to get the poor neighborhoods OUT of our school district. I was POUNCED on for saying things like that. But now, all of the sudden, June Snapple is "fighting poverty" and she's the big hero.

To tell you the truth, it's been a rough week or two.

June is still the PTA president.

I am still the most unappreciated mom in town.

And Grace Telly still shouldn't be allowed out of her house without a helmet.

Meanwhile, my children are the only talented kids in town. Certainly their very CARING, and LOVING, and KNOWLEDGEABLE mommy would have NOTHING to do with THAT! How I was not elected PTA president is still a mystery to me. Some days I bounce around from rage to despair, then back to rage, then despair, etc.

And through it all, Casper keeps asking me to come to his soccer games. Seriously Casper?! Soccer?! Does he not know what happened to me?! How can he possibly think that I would want to go to a soccer game right now? Not to mention, Casper hasn't even scored a goal this season. I just don't have it in me right now to go sit through one of his games, only to see him fail.

But that's what being a mom is. Sometimes you have to just deal with disappointment. Sometimes you have to find ways to politely tell your children that they need to do a better job to earn your attention. Sometimes you have to just keep trying, even when it would be so easy to give up.

And sometimes, the thing that keeps me going is knowing how much of an inspiration I am to all of you. No, I'm not the "official" PTA president. But I am your leader. I am your example. You need me to show you how to make so way cute crafts. You need my advice for how to deal with delinquent children, and for how to obtain the spotlight for those who need it. You need me to tell it like it is. To call out those who raise their children to be the spawn of Satan. And above all else, you need my example of how to be a mom who doesn't judge. A mom who just helps.

I'm still here. And will be. I will continue to be your shining light through the darkness. Because I know how much you all love and need me.

You're welcome.